I broke it off. Didn't tell him all the reasons for it cause he wouldn't be able to handle it plus I was afraid he would get vioelnt with me. I just told him that we started wrong, that I didn't like the fact that everytime we would argue he would leave me like he did Monday. He didn'take it well and wanted us to be friends and that would be another mistake in my part so I said no. I hope he continues to Love God and not go back to what he used to do. I hope God forgives me and doesn't punish me for my wanting someone who really makes me feel alive.
I was really afraid to get married. Not just anyone will be able to be my husband-I'm such an idiot-
I'll be okay-God has other plans for me. I need someone who can really move all my senses. I hope God watches over him now cause I can't.
I hope he doesn't try to kill me or himself.